SEPTEMBER ACTIVITY NOT AGAIN ON LEARNING
less prolific in the year of my life, I had in August of the months in which most post I wrote on this blog.
wanted to make a post before September, as if to anticipate which has been in recent years, the worst month. Three years ago I went through an uncomfortable situation on a blog known for two I got a mail where I refused a scholarship last year near the end of the month I had a day gross, which later would end in failure professional: and the three ended up emotionally destroyed. As in a novel by Carlos Fuentes, September has become a month fateful, tragic black.
I have fear. I think right now my life is worse than these three occasions. All my dreams have fallen and I have no where to me. I try to rebuild my life; but I think it will end before the expansion of lanes on the Mexico-Pachuca (which is time consuming and difficult to finish) I with the foundation's new direction. Sometimes I think maybe because I have nothing to lose, but how well one can tempt fate?
Sometimes it seems a sin to say that one is afraid, as if the world were full of brave and dedicated people, so full of success that they were afraid a minority, an outcast lepers. I remember a practice in college when my class went to Puebla, Atlixco finished in a beautiful and peaceful town, night had fallen. Was with a couple of very beautiful companions and I hardly peeled, we had to go through a street where street lights failed. What was my surprise to see two of them took my arm, explaining that they were afraid because they had been assaulted several times Should I make fun of them because they expressed their fear justified in a situation that was perhaps not safe? At that time I did not, understand them. The donkey was not surly, the clubs did so.
Beyond any fear or superstition, have become the first minutes of September: the month of the bicentennial (and all its festivities agaves) and the season finale of the blog. I discussed this concern in twitter and I received excellent advice: "Face it with eggs. " Yes, I have no choice, I can not sleep for a month until this happens. I have to wake up to face the future as it comes and at least do my part. Psych that the three previous years were a painful accident.
Like last year, only until 30 at 11:59 with 59 seconds I will celebrate ... and I will go big.
See you in the future.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Monday, August 30, 2010
Brutal Nipple Pierced
Nobody told me what it was life.
teach you how to dress, how to tie your shoes, but there are no teachers for all and other things you learn on the fly. Life is, is largely praxis. We are born into a world where there are written rules and unwritten ways of doing things right and wrong. The memory cell does not yet to give a newborn of knowledge that are not instinctive. In short, we come to this world to learn to live in it.
I had the mistake of trying to get open a lot from my parents in adolescence. I wanted to get my own personality and not just an extension of them. Today I realize that did not happen at all. There are many attitudes of them in me and yet I can not help admiring them are better than I though they think otherwise. I admire his courage, his throw, his perseverance and faith. Things did not develop while growing up. Always
I had what I wanted and what is not always replaced it with something else. Never had to work less in school. He did not need courage to take a 10, was as easy as breathing. Read, write, draw, everything is easier for me. I did not know there was a whole "brave new world" that did not belong and that little by little invaded my land. Everything other than the familiar academic or work started to cost me. I focused so much on myself I was not prepared for what was out there.
With this plane of existence full of problems, frustrations and obstacles manifold, can consume you if you do not know what to do. A new world requires new learning. It's bad when can not adapt quickly while there are others who have already made three laps around the block. I admire people who go beyond 50, with a mind full of experiences, ready to overcome difficulties and give advice. Most of them are a human source of wisdom. When I went to Cozumel on the ferry I met an elderly English, born in Manchester. I said I wanted to know his country, and having more experience to take my life better. He just smiled and said, "the get."
Today I see all the things I've lost by not knowing what I have? Assimilate what is lived, as I said at the beginning, that we, in addition to collecting all knowledge, useful or not. I also find the positive side of things, enjoy what is left and use the new experiences to correct future mistakes. Sounds easy but it is not.
Those who have criticized me in the past, all Sabiondo and experienced, have pointed out that I'm missing something or did not do anything ... and they are right. However, in my defense I can say one thing: Nobody told me what it was about life, I learn on the fly. Sometimes slow and others fast. The good thing today is to see that little by little I begin to tread more firmly, for sure I take back my life, I try to put a different attitude to what is put in front of me. There is still much work and little time to do it. Depends on me to change things, make better decisions and "touch the sky," as the dime of "Cadillacs."
See you in the future.
Thursday, August 26, 2010
Cant Transfer Songs From Shareaza..
WOKE UP
[Background: The Rolling Stones - You Can not Always Get What You Want]
In the middle of dinner, engrossed in my thoughts, my mother looked at me and asked me a question:
- Gerson Did you just wake up?
And I was surprised, as if that question twenty I fell, broke out a series of events in mind, a catharsis, a shamanic experience, a revelation from another world. Sitting in a place where a I can see myself in the mirror, just in front of my party as if it were my destiny. Only managed to say:
- Yes
Ten minutes before he opened his eyes and saw what I now understand. The report looked for something in his files and found only this track from the Stones. My eye contact with the world have lost many things I want in these years. I've seen passed as subway cars do not stop at the station. Of the song is a truism that I have accepted and conclusive "can not always get what you want." Just today, only because I need and I need, I will give ten minutes in bed before getting up to try to get what I need.
But if you try Sometimes, You Just Might Find You Get What You Need! ♫ = '(
See you in the future.
[Background: The Rolling Stones - You Can not Always Get What You Want]
In the middle of dinner, engrossed in my thoughts, my mother looked at me and asked me a question:
- Gerson Did you just wake up?
And I was surprised, as if that question twenty I fell, broke out a series of events in mind, a catharsis, a shamanic experience, a revelation from another world. Sitting in a place where a I can see myself in the mirror, just in front of my party as if it were my destiny. Only managed to say:
- Yes
Ten minutes before he opened his eyes and saw what I now understand. The report looked for something in his files and found only this track from the Stones. My eye contact with the world have lost many things I want in these years. I've seen passed as subway cars do not stop at the station. Of the song is a truism that I have accepted and conclusive "can not always get what you want." Just today, only because I need and I need, I will give ten minutes in bed before getting up to try to get what I need.
But if you try Sometimes, You Just Might Find You Get What You Need! ♫ = '(
See you in the future.
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